"In every girls life; there's a boy she'll never forget and a summer where it all began."

I'm aware that one is not supposed to capitalize every letter of a title 
but I've never really followed rules
rules are for people who don't know what to do.

This year is far from over but reflecting back on this last year
I've been through hell
and I'm currently on my way back.

Watching your life fall apart
Seeing everything you love
and found secure,
thought was real,
honest,
forever.

Only late at night 
it seems
that my mind comes alive
with stories
of my past
present
and 
that's about as far as I 
get.


Reminiscing the past
is pointless
but
is it?

I think its
all about learning.

For a long time
I tried to re-read 
emails,
text messages,
Facebook messages,
Twitter messages,
letters written by hand.

I looked at pictures.
Found old memories.
I listened to songs
more memories.
Key words
would bite my skin.

The feelings,
stories,
the what-ifs.

I got tired of 
tasting the salt
feeling all the 
weight
and 
seeing dark circles.

So I threw out the pieces
all the dark 
heavy
miserable
worthless
past. 

It's easier to feel the light 
without
all of it.

Life is new.
I've started over.
I'm rebuilding from the ground up. 
The foundation will be stronger this time.

The person that held the biggest mirror to my face
was you.
When you pushed me,
I pushed back.
But it made me realize a few things.
One of those things
was this quote. 

 "A true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life."-Elizabeth Gilbert


Thank you for messing with my perceptions on love.
And thank you,
Dillon
for that really big mirror.




Letters From A Small Town,
Madison