You know what fixes it?

      My mind has been racing. My eyes are blurry. I found myself outside laying in the grass, in the middle of nowhere. Staring at the stars. Just watching and listening in a deeper way. I could hear my life in the loud silence. It's like every little moment explodes into butterflies that burn into stars. And I swear I heard If It Means A Lot To You By: A Day To Remember playing in the background. 

   The point being, it was a long ambien induced night. I found myself playing everything over and over and over again. And I couldn't figure out how to turn it off. But I re-read a conversation that I had with a new person in my life. 

  He said "You know what fixes it"? I told him if I found out I would let him know. Instead he ended up giving me a lovely piece of advice. 

    "Tag some wall with spray paint. Drive fast and get pulled over and eat fast food because it tastes good. Stay up late when you have to be up early the next day and have bags under your eyes, but be happy because you caught up on your favorite TV show. Kiss a boy you've always wanted to kiss but never had the guts too, and make him like it. Make people respect you. Laugh at frat boys to their faces and splash in puddles and remember that you're a person, and you're alive, and that is one of the things that makes you beautiful."
It probably won't fix everything,but it's a good start. This is probably something you're going to have to find out on your own and I get that, but take it from me that the drinking and drugs don't help. It's fun to swim, but don't haul off and drown."- Dillon Chester.

   I can honestly say this is one of the most beautiful pieces of advice I've been given. And it was by an almost total stranger. I want to be the girl that's the perfect example of experience blinded by hope. 


Thanks Dillon<3


Letters From A Small Town,
Madison